Thinking About My Life

Me: I have been able to think about a lot of things about my life when you were gone.

You: What sort of things about your life you are able to think about?

Me again: Writing and blogging have made me re-align my priorities, and think about the things I have missed for myself. I have been relying heavily on things, or people. The pandemic has made me a prisoner literally and figuratively. I realized that I am left to take care of myself on my own and that people, things, events, etc... can make or break me. And that no one else can really care faithfully and truthfully. Not even my kids perhaps, due to them slowly creating and building their own lives for the future. I also realized that somehow, or in a big, significant way, I have relied on you for too much comfort and strength, and solace, but due to being human, expectations can lead to disappointment and frustration. I realized that I also cannot be someone else's world, no matter how strong or deeply connected we can all be. I should be able to learn how to distance myself emotionally from people and or places, and or things. I do not expect you to understand what I have written here. You don't have to, really. This is just all brain cells working.

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